A Loving Jerk

That's what an intern should be: a loving jerk.

I'm supposed to love deeply while using stern discipline. I couldn't do that when VBS started. As I learn from doing that I know that I am doing the kids a favor even though it may not seem like I am at the time. Yeah, we have reading class and VBS rotations but the in between times are when my unrelenting jerk persona comes out. I really don't like my mean side. I find frustration when I get some kid hugs while I yell at others. 

I think it's good for me to develop a constant rigidness. It makes me very uncomfortable and I think I need that in many other areas of my life as well. I really have to be a jerk to some kids for them to obey me. Though I truly hate being like that, I learn from it at the end of the day. 

See, I really do like times like this in the picture.